Showing posts with label me. Show all posts
Showing posts with label me. Show all posts

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

The Ocean

I day-dream of the ocean.  The sound of the waves on the sand makes a rhythmic pattern that, when matched with my own breathing, melts the stresses of the world away.  The smell of the salty air combined with the sun on my face makes me smile.  Even the seagulls are amusing as the seem to float in the sky, only to come down to have it out with each other over whatever scraps of food they can find.  It is my happy place.

It is where I'm taking my babies this summer for vacation.

Come on August!!

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Urge to purge

Since my last post, I've been working my little tushie off.  I haven't been pressuring myself to do it, I've just had this urge to purge.  Spring cleaning?  Sort of...but more than that too.

I've been picturing the day that we, as a family, can pack up and go home - as in where we want to live.  And it's not here.  Where we currently live serves it's purpose and it's decent in terms of location and weather, but the people are some of the rudest I have ever met and the atmosphere is not what I want my babies growing up in.  They deserve better.  They deserve neighbours who know one another and friends who visit, water to swim in and a small town atmosphere.  They need to know that they are safe and have a real place to call home, one that their parents are happy in.

Along with this wonderful vision has come this feeling - this urge to purge.  Essentially, I am down-sizing.  Making room in our home for just the essentials and those memories we most cherish.  I'm making life simple and wonderful.  I'm preparing to leave one day.  I am donating, giving away, selling or throwing out anything that I would not want to pack and bring with us to our wonderful home.  I don't know when we'll be able to go - it could be many more years at best - but it is very freeing taking these steps to help us get there.

*hugs*

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

There isn't a word for how behind I am.

What a beginning to the year!  2011 has officially tried to kick my ass from all directions.  I am behind on sleep, house work, goals, projects...you name it, I haven't done/completed it.

I have, however, been taking photos for my 365 challenge as part of my 101/1001.  It's just that I haven't been uploading them every day like I used to with the date stamp on them.  I've also been using my professional camera and emptied the photos off my iPhone last month.  Basically, I have my photos, they're just in many different locations and not necessarily labelled.  ::Sigh::  So, my 365 blog will look a little weird as I try to piece it all back together.  C'est la vie!  The end of June marks the end of this year-long photo challenge!  I cannot believe it!!  A whole year has gone by in the blink of an eye.  Craziness.

With Monkey getting out of the hospital this week and things starting to (hopefully) calm down, I hope to begin what will be a very relaxing summer.  My goal is to fill my home with love, laughter and memories complete with lots of fun in the sun.  <3

*hugs*

Monday, March 28, 2011

Non-fail?

I posted here that I was starting to exercise.  I was.  I was out there and doing my thing and all was good.  Then winter hit and it all went to hell.  I hate winter.  Like, REALLY hate winter.  I'm not 100% why I still live in Canada really...

Anyways.  I did my usual thing - I hibernated.  I went out only when necessary or when I got the urge to take the kiddies out and build a snow fort or go sledding for 20 minutes.  But basically I did nothing.  No, scratch that.  I did nothing exercise wise, but I did start to implement other changes I had been wanting to make in my quest for a better lifestyle.

On August 29, 2010 I downloaded an app for my iPhone.  It tracks weight - and your measurements if you want it to as well - and your goals and shows on a graph how you are progressing.  This was a low point for me.  After that other weight post, combined with working at a job that made junk food the norm, I put on an additional 4 pounds even with the exercising I was doing.  That's right, I weighed 229 by the end of August.  I was getting frustrated with how I looked and felt, I needed to put an end to it.  I can't really describe it - although the few times I've been ill probably "helped" with some months - but I haven't made any major changes.  I don't count my water intake - although I prefer water over anything else, so I'm not worried.  I don't watch what I eat really.  I don't count calories or points - I've just made sure to lower my portions, make my recipes simpler and with fresh ingredients and if I crave something unhealthy like chocolate, I eat some to curb it.  Not a lot, but I do give in to most of my cravings.

It's working.  Slowly - which I think is the best way so that I can adjust and maintain - I'm losing weight.  Which is also nice as my family is currently having a contest...and I'm winning.  LOL  I got on the scale this week and weighed in at 213.4 pounds.  I tried on my wedding dress this weekend, and it zipped up with ease!  I have to keep pulling up the size 18 jeans I wear.  It's a great feeling that the changes I am making are positive and sticking.  I'm eating breakfast every day and having a morning snack of fruit.  I've limited my tea intake and lowered my dinner portions.  And I'm not hungry.  Plus, with the warmer weather just around the corner, I know that it will get easier through the spring/summer/fall.

To help celebrate my continued success (coupled with my lacking ability to ever buy new clothes), Mr. Penguin gave me a great birthday gift this year - a shopping spree for bras.  As I am losing weight, my band size has gone down and I've moved from a DD to a D cup - which means hello Victoria's Secret!  I made my wish list last night.  He gets to surprise me with what he wants off of it - it's only fair as he's footing the bill.  ;)  Along with reaching my goal weight, I think hitting a bra size of 36C would be the best thing ever.  To be able to walk into La Senza or wherever and be able to pick a cute bra off the shelf and have it fit would be amazing.   I miss that freedom.

Also, I am planting a container garden this year - no excuses!!  I've got the plans for making cedar planters and I'm going to grow tomatoes (2 kinds), peppers, strawberries, beans, radishes, lettuce, carrots, zucchini and maybe cucumber.  I also found an old tire behind the shed from the previous owners that I'm going to wash down and paint with the girls.  It will be where we plant our Halloween pumpkin.  I can't wait.  The fresh food will help with my smaller portions, be better for us as a family and the gardening involved coupled with just being outside will help immensely.  Plus, I hope to have an abundance of tomatoes to continue my canning hobby this year.

I'm proud of myself.  Now to get outside more and move my butt!
*hugs*

Thursday, February 17, 2011

Best Chocolate Chocolate Chip Cookies EVER.

Ever, ever.  Really.

I have a terrible time following recipes.  Which means I could never master pastries or French cooking...BUT! I make amazing meals from scratch and can even tweak a dessert recipe to make it into something fantastic - in my own humble opinion.  ::cough::

So, I present to you my most recent creation - the BEST chocolate chocolate cookies EVER.

Preheat oven to 375F

1/4 cup sugar
2 tbsp cocoa powder
1/2 cup brown sugar

 In a Kitchenaid mixer, mix together the above ingredients until blended.  Add:

1 egg
1 tsp vanilla extract
2 tbsp orange juice
1/2 cup butter - cubed

Cream together for 3 minutes, scraping the bowl at 1 minute intervals.  Then add:

1/2 cup rolled oats
1 cup flour
1/2 tsp baking soda
1/2 tsp salt (I use Half Salt)
chocolate chips to your taste - I use 1/2 a bag or approx. 1 cup

Mix thoroughly for 3 minutes, scraping the bowl at 1 minute intervals. 
Using a teaspoon, spoon batter onto ungreased cookie sheets.  Place in oven and bake for 10-12 minutes (although my oven seems strong, so I bake them for 9 minutes).

ENJOY with a large glass of milk.

*hugs*

Thursday, January 13, 2011

It's official!

January 10th has come and gone!  I officially started my home daycare on Monday.  It's been so much fun!  I have 2 little ones, plus Baby home all day and then Monkey gets off the bus in the afternoons.  I've wanted this for a long time, but now that it's here, it's even better than I had hoped.  Sure, there is crying and some small toddler 'fights' to deal with, but I get to lay on the floor and sort blocks and colour all day!  I get to bake and cook all the time - ALL. THE. TIME.  I have time during the day to keep my kitchen clean and make grocery lists and even get some laundry done while the little ones nap.

The best part?  I'm home for my girls.  I'm home but also paying my portion of the bills!  It's a wonderful thing.  Goodnight all!

*hugs*

Thursday, January 6, 2011

Biggest Loser 2011

My Parents proposed an idea before New Years Day.

What about a Biggest Loser family contest?  

We'd take the whole year and whoever loses the most weight, wins the pot - which my Dad is putting up - of $500.  My Dad doesn't need to lose weight, so he's the official stats keeper.

It's a contest between my Mom, my brother, his girlfriend, myself and Mr. Penguin.  I have nothing to lose but weight!  And really, in the end we all win healthier lives (cue the cheesy music!).

Wish me luck!

*hugs*

Monday, January 3, 2011

HP2011

My Happiness Project has begun!

I have water by my side constantly and am feeling it in my legs!  I'm not consciously walking more, but with all the extra prep work being done on the house, it's really adding up!

In bed by 10pm?  I haven't quite completed that goal each day.  The prep work is taking up so much of my days/nights.  I hope to have this under control by the end of the week.

I'm excited though!  Big things in 2011!!

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

January 10th

I have been working my little tushie off!  January 10th is the beginning of something great!!
Oh yeah, and I quit my job.

:P

Come on 2011!!

Monday, December 20, 2010

The Santa 'issue'.

The holiday season is in full swing.  There are cranky people everywhere just waiting to push past you on the street, jump in front of you in line at the mall and sneer in utter unhappiness at the slightest...well, ANYTHING.  I don't know why this season seems to bring out the worst in people.  Seriously.  If buying gifts makes you THAT unhappy - STOP. BUYING. GIFTS.  It's not that hard!  Your kids are taught what to think of the holidays, they don't need that expensive toy or a room full of crap.  It is the parent's job to show them why.

In the spirit of the season, I do give a couple of gifts.  Our parents, my nephew, Mr. Penguin and the girls (as well as a few Secret Santas).   Which brings us to our new predicament...Santa.  With Monkey's speech delay, we never brought up the story of Santa and how he supposedly comes to the house, as she didn't have the vocabulary and we didn't want to scare her.  So until school, where she is now learning about Santa, she just knew that we bought each other gifts and opened them on Xmas day.  And that Santa could be found at the mall.  However, Baby Penguin will be coming up next year on when kids are normally taught about Santa.  But we're not sure we WANT to start Santa at our house.  I don't want to lie to my kids, I don't want to give gifts from someone else, and I definitely don't want Xmas to become about GIFTS.

At the Penguin household during the Xmas season, we bake: cookies, muffins, cakes, bread - anything we feel like.  We cook: spaghetti, chili, casseroles and pasta dishes.  We donate: our time, our money, our toys, our clothes.  We cherish: each other, our friends, our family,and what we have.  But most of all, we create: drawings, paintings, things out of play doh, blanket forts, play picnics, whatever we feel like!  We choose to use the holiday season to spend time with our girls and experience the joy that can be had during this holiday season. 

On Xmas Day, I like to give my girls colouring books, art supplies, books and usually one toy each.  This year the baby is getting a soft chair for the toy room, a colouring book and a stuffed puppy - with crate and accessories to take care of it - to prep her for the puppy we may be getting next year.  Monkey is getting 4 books, Play Doh, some toy cars (she's obsessed) and a storage case to store them in - to help her learn to organize her smaller toys.  That is it.  There will be The Grinch movie, a wonderful breakfast by Mr. Penguin and tons of snuggles on December 26th this year (Monkey has Xmas with her father, so we'll be celebrating late).  It all sounds wonderful to me.  Even if the girls had no gifts under the tree, I know for a fact that it would still be an amazing day at our house.  <3

So, did you pass the tradition of Santa and gift giving on to your kids (or will you)?  How do you celebrate the holidays?  What is your favorite thing about December that just makes your heart soar?

Happy Holidays!
*hugs*

Friday, November 26, 2010

December

I purchased Mr. Penguin's 30th birthday gift.  He is one lucky man - well obviously as he has moi, but now he's REALLY lucky.  I cannot wait.

It's also my Mom's birthday, my best friend's birthday, Xmas and the holidays.  Decembers are always crazy, but I love them!  I love the family moments and searching for personal gifts for everyone.  I love that people think about one another during this time of year too. 

We have a tradition in the Penguin household of taking the girls food shopping for donations to the Food Bank.  They get to help out and pick some of the food and also learn about charity and helping those in need.  As Monkey is 5 this year, I am also choosing a child's name off of the Xmas tree at the mall who is in need of clothing.  It will be a good thing for her to understand and also pick out some cute clothes for someone else.

Happy Holidays folks!  Remember to hug someone close, call someone you haven't heard from in a while and donate - whether food, clothes, time, money or whatever.  'Tis the season for love!!

*hugs*
 

Sunday, November 21, 2010

It's unfolding...

Guess what?!  My ex went for my idea.  Yeah, who knew I had that kind of power of negotiation?!  I should be a lawyer in my next lifetime.

I don't have much I can share.  As this is a public blog I have to keep it to myself until all affected parties have been notified personally.  But it is good stuff!  And it is definitely lining up with my happiness project.  I feel happier and more relaxed already.  Considering how much I've been doing recently, 'relaxed' is an interesting term.  But I'm more focused and I truly feel this is a great change.

YAY!!

Friday, November 5, 2010

Thoughts

There are so many things going on in my head/life right now. 

Monkey is in school and dealing with all the ups and downs of her first year in kindergarten - I never realized how much of a relaxed mother I am until she started...some mothers need to uncork it a bit!  Baby is now walking and into everything - especially things she's not supposed to be in or things that will annoy her sister.  Mr. Penguin is back in university and trying to maintain his A+ average (I am SO proud of him!!) and working long hours into the night on his contract jobs on top of it all.  And me?  I am dealing with issues at work and making plans on the side.

I just wish my plans didn't hinge on my ex.

Seriously?!  You'd think after a divorce that someone wouldn't have that kind of power over you anymore.  But when it comes to children involved - and especially MY child - there is always a link.  So now I wait.  Does he want to help ME?  Hell no.  Is it better for Monkey?  I think so.  Will he go for it?  Meh...50/50 at this point.

That's all I have to think about.  How my job is killing me inside, how I want so much for my ex to be reasonable, how I miss my husband as he works his butt off, how I need to finish the laundry and keep decluttering...What?!  Xmas is coming?  Damn...I have things to get!  And cards to mail and, and, and...!!

And I may be getting sick (again) as my glands are a little swollen, most likely due to my work/ex stress.
AWESOME.

It's 9pm here...goodnight!

*ek*


Thursday, October 21, 2010

Health points please?

I'm sick again. 

This time my glands were swollen out past my neck.  The doctor gave me giant pills for 10 days and told me to drink plenty of fluids and get lots of rest.  Yeah sure, a full time job, 2 kids and a household to run...no problem!  But I took it seriously - pneumonia isn't on the list of things I want.  So I went into work, delegated what I could, brought a little bit home and started sleeping.  I'm feeling better and the glands are less swollen today than they were on Monday.

Hopefully I feel normal again soon.

We head off back home tomorrow with the baby.  We have a wedding to attend on Saturday.  I'm glad for the chance to see one of my best friends (who we're actually staying with) and get to eat a DONAIR.  That is why we go home people - donairs.

Tomorrow at lunch!!  NOM NOM
What foods make you think of home?

*hugs*

Monday, October 11, 2010

Our love story

I'm creating our love story.  Actually, I've been "creating" it for almost a year now on Blurb.  It's 42 pages so far of copied love letters, emails, notes, cards and photos...it's the perfect thing to be working on the week leading up to our anniversary.  <3

It should be done and here for his 30th birthday.

I love my handsome man.  And to be honest, while compiling all of these things in one location, and considering we've been together for 3 years...we have got quite the love story!! 

*hugs*

Do you ever relive YOUR love story?

Monday, October 4, 2010

Fall is here

17 reasons why fall is my favorite season:

1) The pretty, pretty leaves changing colours
2) The brisk air
3) Getting a chance to wear all of my beautiful scarves
4) Frost on the grass in the morning sun
5) It's the season of our wedding anniversary
6) Hot pockets of warm air in the bed covers! 
7) Wearing slippers in the house
8) Warm meals on chilly nights
9) Tea (not really just a fall thing, but it still counts)
10) Time off with family for Thanksgiving
11) Preparing for Xmas!!
12) Comfy sweaters
13) Walks in nature
14) The smell of bonfires
15) PUMPKINS!
16) Apple picking
17) Baking

*hugs*

Sunday, October 3, 2010

Pssssst!

Hey!  Guess what?
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My husband is so handsome.  <3

Thought I'd share.
*hugs*

Thursday, September 30, 2010

Ramblings

Work has been hell this week.  That is all on that.

I have continued to read "The Happiness Project" and I am now into her month of August.  As I get further into the book, I have grown and tweaked my own project.  I am modifying my goals and challenges and making it unique to me.  I am also stealing some of the challenges from the book!  I have many of the same issues as the author.  We both have 2 young girls, work, run a household, aren't very religious, have a spouse and find it hard to make friends.  I am taking some of her ideas to push me further, but also trying a different spin on others that may not have worked for her.  I am very excited.

In 17 days it will be my and Mr. Penguin's 1st wedding anniversary!  Yes, we did things all backwards...what can I say?  We're those kind of people!!  But I wouldn't have it any other way.  I was thinking of going to the local nature spa for dips in the hot/cold pools and maybe a treatment or a steam train ride with dinner.  But we'll see what Mr. Penguin has in mind.  Whatever it is, I have baby Penguin at my parent's place for the night and Monkey is at her father's place.  It is just me and my Penguin.  Sounds perfect already.

*hugs*

Thursday, September 23, 2010

3 month mark!

It has been 3 months since I started my 365 photo challenge!  90 days!  I find it so interesting to go back and look over what me and my little family have accomplished in such a short time.  It definitely was a busy summer.

275 days to go!

*hugs*

Monday, September 20, 2010

Who am I? Part I

You'd think after 'living' with myself for 28 years I'd have no problem answering that question.  But I do.  As a child who moved around a lot, I never got attached to the things around me - as they would inevitably change.  I was always the new girl, which made me shy and I was very conscious of that fact.  It prevented me from trying new things.  It prevented me from having a solid friend base - people who have known me my entire life.  It made me concentrate on not getting attached.  My constant was change.



This past year has been hard, wonderful and the beginning of something great.  With the start of the 101/1001 list and also this blog, I have attempted to push myself to find what I like, what I love and most importantly, what I want.



A lot of people I grew up with knew what they wanted to be from a young age.  They pursued the education for it and are now working in a field that they've always been interested in.  Me?  I had/have no clue.  I eventually starting saying I wanted to be a teacher, just so that I had an answer and didn't sound like a complete idiot.  But I liked the planning aspect of teaching...not the being around students all day aspect.  Not really a good match.

Thoughts to be continued...
*hugs*